Like most bloggers, I put a lotta PERSONAL content out there.  YouTube father-daughter dance, skydiving ‘bove Pikes Peak, sulphur-n-snow soak in Iceland, safari-video of Africa’s Big 5, Hobbiton/New Zealand, Moscow’s Red Square, Guinness tour in Dublin.  We’re seemingly crazy extraverted.  It’s the content we put out there – it’s our ‘best’ selfie.  Truth is, it’s complicated.

Heck yeah, I wanna see the world.  But on the inside takes a whole lotta high mountain hikes & long run days – to mentally get there.  Classic introvert.  Panic before big city races (too many people), stress boarding flights outside US/Canada, never EVER invite strangers inside the house one-on-one (talk to folks on my porch).  The anxiety/mental fear can be debilitating.

Over time I’ve self-taught myself tricks to ‘get on the roller coaster’.  From there, I’m already on & can enjoy the ride.  LOVE of life – it’s true, it’s real.  Goal: avoid a solitary one-room mountain hermit life, with my best pal Ro.  LOL>  Life is meant to be lived, not observed from inside a cave.

Best mate Stephen Christmas-gifted today’s one-on-one in-your-own-kitchen cooking lesson.  For a guy who LOVES food & consumes so many pre & post marathon calories – mighty cool gift, huh.

Unfortunately gift card & letter sat on my kitchen counter sooooo long that my Gifter had to take control, reach out & schedule the lesson.  Ugh, super sorry.  Not procrastination, fear.  Not of failing, that’s fairly normal.  Epic ‘FAILS’ can be the source of great laughter/good time.  My fear?  Allowing the vampire to cross your front-door threshold/come inside.  CRAZY I know.  Fear is still real.  No life nightmare to draw upon/overcome, no trauma relived – just made-up, solely in-my-own-head anxiety.

Fast forward 2 hours.  Kale quesadillas & breakfast frittatas – FLAWLESS.  Mike: trainer/nutritionist, schooled at CSU, young family/new baby – GREAT guy.  Easy to understand.  Focused his efforts on menu items I could add to my weekly planner – foods I already eat, add diet variety.  Came with all needed ingredients AND a muffin tin.  Thanks man.

Point to today’s post – we all have fears.  Real or imagined.  Own them, talk about them, you’re not alone.

In the end, you might even graduate & master breakfast frittatas – which you’ll probably only share with family & your best Pup, since you’re super shy, introverted & a freak in one-on-one situations.  Baby steps, folks.  Baby steps 😊